#14 - Free To Dance

This song in my heart

This song in my soul

This song I was born to sing

It's Your song of freedom

Now I'm free to dance again

I'll sing in the darkness

I'll laugh in the rain

Rejoice in Your love again

It's Your song of freedom

Now I'm free to dance again

Your spirit brings me liberty

Your breath of life has set me free

JESUS, Your love it lifts me high

Gives me reason to run this race with joy

This song within me Lord

Will bless Your Holy Name

JESUS, I'll dance before Your throne

Bring this heavenly sound to You alone

This song within me Lord

Will bless Your Holy Name

Yeah!!!  Rejoice in Him always!!!! 

#13 - Midnight Oil? nahhh...

Midnight...

While everyone were sleeping, I was fully awake. Trying to get some sleep but can't...
It was cooling, with air-con turned on and with a nice blanky (blanket)... still can't sleep! Sigh...from now on I must no have any coffee drinks after 8pm... Unless the next day I'm having day-off or holidays!

Now... I think I got panda-eyes! @_@

So if you can't sleep, your mind will be sure function actively and this was what happened! Lying down, this thought came knocking on my head... then another 1...another 1... this and that... Don't want it to occupied too much in my brain, pray is the only solution. Praying in tongues and words...asking Father to calm me & give me peace...eventually leading praying for future spouse! Geng ahhh...

I think I managed to grap some nap though but eventually very fast awake! "tict-toct...tict-toct..." with dogs barking I can hear it clearly. Is already 3am!!! Wuahhhhh~!!! I could also hear the trash-bins being lifted up by the MPKKs...still can't sleep~!!!!

4.12am...
Looked at the time with many thoughts playing in my mind. That's it! I got up and went into a room and pray again! This time, where I really list out those particular issues that been bothering me quite a while, telling Him how I felt and what I wanted but afraid of not seeing it come true. I know I have to surrender evertything to Him but my freshly desire was scared of losing it; scared of dissapoinment; scared of being hurt once again... But yes... pray pray pray is the only solution! Pray that God will increase in me while I myself will decrease. Finally, I just leave it all to God and asking Him to show me the way and take whole of my relationship issues.

Then, I walked out from the room & try to get some sleep... It was 4.21am.

With mouth mumbling in tongues and heart fill with excitement (yea...is excitement which I dunno why)... gradually my eye-lits were getting heavier and heavier... ZzzzzZzzzz


In fact, I think I will keep on doing what I have been doing just now...sent a message of encouragement once a while to build up the....?? Hahahahha... should I...? Will see how it goes :)

#12 - POSITIONED

Here is an article that I read, which I find it quite meaningful. Part of it sound like this :

" Created to live with purpose, we want to know we have something to give. We were also created with the desire for belonging. While God intended to meet these desires with Himself, we often look to the tangible to find fulfillment, even in the body of Christ.
  If we believe our importance in the body of Christ comes from whatever position we hold in the church, that distort our purpose - and that of the church. But God established the church to be a representation of His glory, not our own. When we base our sense of purpose on what those in leadership ask us to do, we set ourselves up for disappoinment and open the door for offenses.
  To function well as he body of Christ, each of us must -

1. Recognize that God, not man, is the ONE who position us for ministry (Eph 4: 7, 11)
2. Submit to the God-ordained process of being equipped for ministry and be willing to train under those whom God has put in place (Eph 4:12)
3. Grow to be more and more like Jesus (v.15)
4. Know your part and help others grow spiritually (v.16)

The church exists to show the goodness and glory of God " - Regina Franklin

As I read it over and over again...God spoke to me through this article. Doubts and questions before that were all being answered :D  What I need to do is to sign up for the Ellel-7-Days School (yes...it has been bothering me whether or not to go...) Where to get those money to pay the fees is NOT the main problem anymore. I........ finally SIGN UP  ! The rest of the issues... Jesus, I surrender it all to You!

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Few days ago had a dream, which caused me think it over and over again...till now T_T  A dream that I want to happen in real-life (wahhahahaha) but can it be? Hmmmm... I wonder.
Was it from fresh (own desire) or a vision?
It pop up again during prayer meeting yesterday night (opps...) but with different situation & surrounding.

Hmmmm... very farnieeeee... apa mcam sekarang~~!!!
就顺其自然吧。。。做好我的本份及别过界。。。嘻嘻。。。

continue to pray... P.U.S.H... pray pray pray!!!




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